Well that question bothers me a fair bit.
Who am I?
So I'm called Emily, yeah so what. That doesn't define who I am. It's just a name. Yeah, I'm 14, but I don't feel it.
I hate people stuffing me around, people who can be indecisive, and people who put their input or opinion in when it's not wanted. It's impossible to avoid all of these people, but I guess you just have to put up with it. There's certain people like that in my "friends" group at school. Not naming names.
I don't take any shit from anyone anymore. I had to put up with enough of it last year, and I'm not willing to deal with it anymore. Either physically or mentally. I stick up for myself, and voice my opinions. I don't care what people think about me anymore. It's too exhausting.
I am a horse rider, and own one horse. Mum leases a horse, but I think in a month or two, once the novelty's worn off, I imagine that Zabby will become mine for the rest of the lease. Thirza is simply amazing, words can not describe how amazing she is. We have our moments, but we get through them, and now that times gone on, we have less of them. I love her with my heart, and neither of us are perfect, but we can always try. She has given my best friend her confidence back, nothing is as priceless as that. I'm extremely proud of Amy to get on Thirz, especially after Vic.
Zabby, well I'm not sure what to think of this guy yet. He seems cheeky, yet, untrusting. If he was a human, I swear he would be one of those people that you think you know, but you really don't. Their lives are kept top secret, and no one knows anything about them really. I think over time, we'll both get confident enough that maybe we'll go to PC together, and possibly some kind of show.
Hockey is also another thing, although, I'm considering giving it up. Yeah yeah, its a team sport and I should do more of these blah blah blah. It just makes it difficult when people are on there, and you just don't really get on with, and its awkward. And no body speaks to each other after the seasons over anyway. They all just go on with the usual lives, and only speak to each other if its really necessary, or to ask a question to do with hockey. It is fun, its good to smash out all your anger and frustrations on some poor kid on the opposition, but I think thats what everyone is there on the turf for anyway.
School. Well thats another whole topic on itself. I used to enjoy it, now I'm not so sure. People change, there is the inevitable bitching and gossiping, and all the teachers pretend to be in the know about it. Yeah, nah. Seriously, if they kept their noses out of it half the time, half of it would never happen. Last years issues have been resolved, but although it doesn't involve me, you can see it happen to someone else. Supposed friends gossiping about you behind your back, stealing boy's numbers out of your phones, adding your best friends on facebook, its always going to happen, as long as we're all still at school. No one gives a stuff about who's reading it, or who deletes it, its just all for popularity. People feel safe about having a screen between them, and the bitching. I know one person who was definitely like that. It's talked about all over school, between grades. Dah. Gossip spreads fast.
Well my friends are basically what makes me me. Here's a few mentions:
Amy Pennington - You are the most amazing best friend I have ever had. I remember when I first met you, you seemed waaaay older than me, and I was so jealous of you riding Rose. I found you on facebook, added you, and I was so scared when I first sent that first chat message to you! I'm so glad I did though, because I don't know what my life would be like without you. I can bitch about anyone with you, and I know, that without you I would probably be a mess. I love how I can go riding with you, and you never criticise me for the way I do things, and that we can go so long without speaking to each other (Mt Hotham & Fiji :P) and we talk like it was only yesterday that we last talked. You supported me and listened to me, all throughout last year, and didn't talk to me like I was some 3 year old. To be honest, I probably wouldn't here today if it weren't for you. You are simply amazing and I trust you with everything. I love you <3
Tori Mellor - Well well well Miss England ;) I have to say, I never thought that we would ever be friends, cause I remember you being pissed off when I first began helping out, but we quickly got over that. We had the best times with Liv, haha especially in the hay shed that time! Then when you left I was so devo cause I thought, well that was our friendship over, but it turned out that it was just the beginning. We chatted on facebook, didn't see each other for aggeeesss, but we finally caught up when I was back from Fiji, and we've been tight ever since :) we've dealt with Gretel's issues, especially after my little stack in axiom way, and you finally convinced me to join PC. Then all our sleepovers, especially the most recent with your mum coming in at like midnight and yelling at us, and then we were so freaked out when the torch light came around! Haha and how I answered "uhm not really." and your mum got pissed off at me too. Hahaha, and the whole "or is it, or am i?" thing with Harriette and James, and how we got so pissed off at them! All the bitching we do too ;) I'm sure we'll have many awesome times to come :)
Alyssa Cane - mmmm well now, I have so many memories with you, I don't know where to begin. K, well, I suppose we were little kiddlets and we met cause your brother was like, yeah I have a sister, and we met and yeah. BAM. Then we always had our little pathetic although funny fights over Barbie's and the stables and I would storm home all huffy and puffy and we wouldn't speak for a week. Then you'd always hibernate in the winter "oh yes, you probably won't see me much, I'll be inside most of winter." and then you did ballet and I remember riding up to your place on my little bike, and then seeing people you did ballet with at your door, and I remember pedaling home all upset. Then I moved to St Cuthberts in year 5, and Amy Breen would look me up and down and I remember thinking "wtf are you looking at?!". After year 6, I went to smc, and you were all like "I swear you'll change in high school, and we won't be friends anymore." now now now, I wasn't the one that changed hey! We were still tight when I was in year 7, then you left St Cuthy's and you went to Mt Carmel, and then I swear you left me allllll behind. I would barely see you, and when I did, it was a flying visit and we kinda lost touch a bit. Towards the end of the year, I was lucky to see you once a month, and we barely caught up over summer. I still remember the days when we were riding our bikes all over the neighbour hood, maaaan, we must've pissed some people off, and then that time we would go for a walk, come back, go on the trampoline for like an hour, then you'd go home at 5pm. And that time when we threw the water bombs over to the neighbours roof, and some didn't burst so they decided to throw them back. LOL. Yeeeah, we had a lot of memories, and I'm not sure there will be many to come. Who knows what fate decides. but SMILE :)
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